They say I’m very moody. Sometimes, I’m in a high mood, other times I am in lower mood. When I am in good mood, I feel so secure, patient and confident. I have a sense of lightness and I’m always convinced especially in dealing with problems where solutions seem readily available. But when I’m in a lower mood, everything seems difficult. I easily get bored and nothing seems to satisfy me. It seems like I am in the top if the iceberg as though more trouble is just around the corner. It looks like there are no solutions at all. I feel so useless and hopeless.
Well, I guess that’s me, a person who suddenly changes mood. I’m hard to read and took a lot of time for people to guess what I am thinking or feeling. If I were to choose, I would like to be in a good mood always, otherwise, I will be procrastinating myself coz everything justify the way I am feeling. It’s almost though there’s an invisible negative antenna encouraging me to notice everything that is wrong to my life...
Sometimes, it leads me with no choice but to pretend that I’m happy as if everything’s alright. I hope I can find ways to defend myself from a mood attack. But I couldn’t fight. I am too weak to be tempted by negative things.
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