09/17/10

why does every time i give my best shot,, i always end up devastating..
it really sucks!!
its feels like there's a lot of emotional things you want to express and you just want to explode immediately!

i just want to give my best but it seemed that people find it hard to appreciate it..


i just really wish everyone didn't have such high expectations of me... because its bad enough i let myself down.. i don’t need to let everyone else down too..


i remember what my friend told me:
"joie, maybe its not your best yet, there are still other things i know you can attest"


i guess she's right! i just need to work hard and double, maybe triple my time
! though its kinda depressing but i don't want to let myself down,,


oh GOd! give me strength please :(