Ever known a girl who’s always lost? The one with the pretty smile that no one could tell that is fake? That girl who seems to be so strong, but daily continues to break? You know, that girl who is always there and seems to have no problems at all? The one who holds back tears and dries it up until you are off? That girl freaks out when she receives unexpected phone calls or text messages from her oao (one and only). The girl who patiently waits despite of the melancholic truth of distance and communication block?
“Welcome to my life :)”
In case you do not know. I belong to some kaydet girls. It’s like
Rarely communication +once in a blue moon dates and visits + seldom phone calls and text messages + Service to the country +academics + Long Distance + = KAYDET GIRL J
This has been a traditional set for us Kaydet girls who just can’t help but pour out our sentiments to co-kaydet girls, after being left with our oao to go for his destination of duty. Whom we thought no one else could ever understand the way we feel than a co-kaydet girl since we are the ones who wear the same shoe style–only varies in sizes.
In my case, to be someone who's not there beside you is not easy. It’s far harder than climbing the mountains of Sierra Madre or patrolling the wild forests of Sultan Kudarat and even much harder than aiming an Alas grade in major subjects *insert laugh* . It is never been easy to be a kaydet girl but it is even harder to shake it off when things get tough especially when you’re having disagreement with each other. Sometimes, it feels like you want to express a lot of emotional things but just couldn’t find ways to express it properly and the worst, it might lead you to frustrations and feeling unfair. But I must learn how to adopt the changes regarding with their rules so that conflicting interests will be avoided. I may never know when he will have his TAKE LIFE moments for him to call or text me. That’s why I always bring my phone every where I go, otherwise, I could miss those seldom chances for him to communicate me.
At first, I thought it was an obscure idea to go in a long distance relationship. Who does want to be in that situation where in you have less communication and you see each other once in blue moon??This question has gnawed constantly at the back of my mind for the past few months. But now, I've stopped asking those nonsense questions because I guess loving someone from afar (a cadet ... "for that matter") works in mysterious ways indeed. But despite of this melancholic, heartbreaking life, I learn how to love a man unconditionally regardless of his rigorous chosen profession .But the thing is, this happens every so often that if you can not adapt to this changes in your free-spirited life, it would really push you to give up. And that is something that we, kaydet girls, must be so proud J
However, there are couple of times when I unknowingly ask myself “Why must I wait two years, three years or five years - and seem to waste so much time, when there are other "alternatives" I can consider?”.Well of course, there is no simple answer. But I guess “good-byes” are just temporary and thus I must consider it as a mysterious gift of waiting-- to consider it as a “present” without making demands or asking rewards in return. It’s just a matter of testing my sincerity of love. Though the worst is yet to come but distance never separates two hearts that really care. This experience boils down to one thing called LOVE. And just as love is always a matter of risks, perhaps, the saying is true, Love is always a risk WORTH TAKING.
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