mga kabuang sa staff and delagates :)))

twas a success! thanks to the 200+ delegates :D

and finally!!! the most highlighted part of the QITC has ended succcesfully.. But the fun doesn't stop there. We still have the Quantum quiz bowl, ms paint and photoshop contest and it will be happening this Saturday at SM city.

But as of this moment, I just couldn't stop myself but be thankful for the success of the 3-day convention of QITC. You just have no idea how we prepared the whole event just to satisfy the expectations of our delegates. And we are so happy, i mean superbly happy to know that the delegates enjoyed the convention. Reading their comments, feedback,and compliments really made our hearts flattered. All the sacrifices, the depression, the starvation, and sleepless nights were all worth it. All the staff helped each other, though some were not able to maximize the event because they sacrifice their time to work with other important matters, but nonetheless , we were eager to give our full-time effort for our delegates.
Im sure many of the staff were not yet able to catch up their sleep and im also one of them. Imagine, we slept almost 5am and we have to get up at 6am to wake up all the delegates. That's how exhausted we were.Though there were some many shortcomings during the convention but we really helped each other to correct all the mistakes and the damages. But to be honest, many really got affected of it. And Im one of those. But as what they've said, "its part of growing up". lol :))

In my part as an MC of the program, i also have lots of inadequacy. First, Dave(my co-emcee) and I were not that ready so we have no other ways but to read a script during the event. Second, i had really made a lot of mistakes especially with my grammars and uttering some words.Third, I was really really scared during that time because I didn't expect to see many delegates.in other words, the first half of the program was really disappointing . BUt during the break, Dave and I reflected well regarding with our performance. And we realized that one factor with our very disappointing performance was the mic. So Dave and I planned to hold the microphones to make ourselves comfortable. SO their, we managed to correct our mistakes and the program went well all the way. *pheeeeew

Anyhow,all the invited speakers were great. They really presented their talk well. I was, on the other hand, amazed and inspired by them. Each of them shared a very informative and educational talk. I was just so lucky that I was one of the MC and I was able to listened their topic.

I couldn't share more of all the happenings during the event.It will took me long hours to write all what happened but the important thing is that we enjoyed serving the delegates and we are happy to know that we have come up with big profit from the convention so as of this moment, the staff are still planning for the upcoming victory party.. lovet.. <3
so maybe i could just show some of the pics during the event:
here, take a peek :

DAY 1:








DAY 2(morning):







(evening:social night)







ps: these were just some of the pics during the event. dont worry, im gonna upload the other pictures in some other time..rest assured. as of this moment, i will drowsed in my bed and take a rest.. Bye for now :D

bukas na talaga!!!!!

bugo jeepney vs truck accident == human error

Finally, my midterm exam was over.. pheeeew. and guess what? It didn't give me hard time answering almost all of our exams. I guess i did try my best to study well.I was just so relax that I didn't bother to wake up early morning just to review. It just went out smoothly and calm.yeeey for me.
Anyway, i deserve to give a short review about the happenings within this week.SO here you go :)

monday: i woke up early to support the QITC staff for the pamahaw espesyal interview. It was my first time to roam around inside ABS-CBN. And we got the chance to see the set of pamahaw espesyal LIVE. I was really amazed when it comes to their professionalism. The hosts, the staff, the cameraman, all of them. After the interview, we immediately went ahead for the MOR interview slash promotion. It was such a nice experience to witness their set especially behind the cameras. After that, we went ahead to school to take our exams.


Then @6pm, i meet up with my college friends and went to steph's birthday. Then went home to study.


tuesday:I didn't have any exams to take but i went to school to process my T.O.R. for our OJT this summer. The CS friends cant stop talking about the OJT thing. Each of us has different plans to where will gonna be. Some of them plan to have it in Manila, while others are planning to stay here. BUt as for me??? I would love to have my OJT in cebu and I couldnt stop myself to be excited.. yiiikes ^_^
But my day ended with such a weird experience. A lady called me in my phone asking if I knew someone named Rolly(i forgot his last name). The lady was telling me that they helped out the guy from an accident and they found my number from his phone. I felt weird with that lady because first of all, i don't know a person named rolly and I was wondering if how did my number got into that guy's phone. The lady even recognized my nickname "bambi". And only my relatives know about my nickname.It was so strange..

wednesday: I went to school to take my 2 other exams then went back home.

thursday: It was a sad day for me. The moment I went back home from school. My cousin told me that a bugo liner had a collision with a truck. And there were people who died in that accident and many got injured. And little did I know that one of the passenger was my aunt, a family friend of mine. The first news I got was that she was still in recovery then the last thing i heard, she died. I felt so sad about the news and the painful thing about it was that, she was not even ready to die. It was just a human error that took away my aunt's life. It was really a sad sad news.. :((



friday: went to school early to take my filipino exam then went back home :)

so here were just some of the updates within this week..
stay updated for more.. :D

stayput..

I just realized that my week was been so hectic. Really hectic. I was caught off guard by the busy schedules we had just to promote the QITC from different schools . We went to XUHS, pilgrim, montesori,CU and we even went to concentrix. But to be honest , pressure is starting get along with us. Every time I returned home, im not being able to do my other school stuff because I was too much exhausted at school. In fact, Dave and I will be the EMCEES in that event and that makes me anxious even more. Imagine, I’ll be facing the visayas-mindanao participants both professionals and students. I couldn’t imagine myself to be on that day. Plus, we still need to insert our project in Software Engineering to our hectic schedule every once in a while. But I don’t want to complain. I actually like it. Id prefer to be busy all day rather than doing non sense things and other useless stuff which would make my life more boring. So I guess its better to be this way. But none the less, I still have other problems to settle with. Tuesday before the event, I am attending a debut party for my friend. SO I still need to find a dress for that day plus, I need to find another dress for our first day in our QITC event. The QITC staff will be wearing a formal/business attire and since I will be the EMCEE on that day, so I should make it sure that I will be wearing a dress that looks presentable. I don’t have to worry for my las vegas attire for the following day because I have prepared it already since last November. I was too excited for the las vegas’ social night so as early as last year, I already bought the dress I wanted for the las vegas’ social night. You just have no idea how we prepared for that event. I am one of the staff who organizes the program so basically, I know all the flows of the whole event including the presentations, games and all other suprising stuff.

We will be covered in pamahaw especial this Monday so if you can find time, please do watch pamahaw especial tomorrow around 7:00 am in the morning. Then the MOR will promote the QITC starting tomorrow. It will be a great help to disseminate our convention. Anyway, my mom envied my QITC glow-in-the-dark shirt.. haha

SO, there you go. I think these are just “some” of the happenings I had for the whole week. Im not sure If I could update within this week because exam is on the road so basically its “no-opening-to-social-networking-sites” week. Good luck to me then.. CIAO J

refraiN!!

I really don’t want to repeat the same mistakes I did from last. I don’t want to loose something because of my stupidity. That’s how vulnerable I am as of this moment. I’m loosing all the confidence that I built in a span of years. In just a quick crashed, I lost everything. I am no longer certain to possible things. Maybe this time, I want it to be different. Correct the mistakes ive done from my past and live a conscience-free life. I don’t care what my life would take me as long I will be able to avoid being wrecked into pieces. But what makes it difficult for me is that I am denying my true emotions. I am hiding those things that would make me happy. It’s just ironic that I cannot choose the life I wanted. But if it is the best thing to do, then I have no choice. But do you want to know why I am uttering to non-sense stuff like these. Its because I was tamed again. At first I thought, it was ok and just continue to what has been going on. But days go by, it brings me into confusion that maybe I misunderstood the kindness that has been shown. I hate it! I am too weak. I can’t even recognized whether it was true or or just a misconception. And it made me even scared to know the truth so before any dilemma would draw closer; I want to discontinue it to avoid being upset again. You just have no idea how much trauma has caused me the last time. So as early as today, I want to make things right. I want to lay it up to God. I know he’s currently writing the best story for me and sooner or later I maybe able to grasp what was been written for me. Sure, its not easy but one way or another, it would help me continue my life easily and painlessly.

"GLIMPSE"

"I had a quick glimpse a while a ago.You may never understand the full details about it. And im not even sure if I was happy of it or not!"

One thing I am sucked of something: "I SUCKED AT PRETENDING"..
hahahha..yeah.. im not good at it, I admit.
Like when someone brings up something I know that really annoys me or anything, I play it off by acting like I don’t care when I actually do. Its like Im wearing a fake smile on my face like a fake designer bag, its not real but most people can't tell if it is or not unless you examine every aspect of it. So every time this "thing" is brought up, I act like I don't care and create a smile while on the inside I'm slowly dying. I just realized that I do this a lot to cover up my what's really inside of me. But sure, I am person who easily get used to everything..
I got a second note from ate D in my our locker. Actually, we were sharing the same locker.
I failed to give my reply 'coz it was too late already so maybe i'll do it tomorrow.

While I was in the middle of trying to get myself sleep, I thought of playing the movie that used to be my favorite. I dont know why it did come out from my mind to play that movie, but it just popped up and without having a second thought, I immediately grabbed my laptop and played it. Maybe it still has something that couldn't make me disregard. ^__^

on the not-so-good-part of my day.My teacher showed us the correct answers of our exam yesterday, i figured out that I could have done it better. I missed a lot of points because of my carelessness. I made a lot of misspelled words. such a stupid person!!! tsk.. I should learn to work this out and be careful with my spelling next time.>.<

OH wait! before I end this blog, I just want to apologies for the numerous grammatical errors I have in my entries. I'm not a writer, this is only a hobby, so its still my prerogative to make some mistakes here. But I'm open for any comments and suggestion.. ^_^

uber happy ^______^

i just love this day.
I couldn't help but smile to every good things that has happened to me today.
When I was about to get my laptop in my locker, I saw a small paper with a short note.. It really my day happy. I was so touched by the cute thought of ate Diana. She really never fails me..
Second, I was so happy with the result of my late-preliminary exam in my major. Though the exam was been moved many times, yet i never stop scanning my notes just to make sure that i was able to keep what i have promised to myself... yeeey me.. :))

3rd, im so happy that I was able to see Cy at school earlier. Finally, after all the misunderstanding we had last month, our paths have crossed. At first, i was having a second thought of going near to hear but she smiled at me so i hugged her immediately. I really really missed her.

4rth, i just couldn't be more thankful to God for having me the kind of people who never fail to make me smile or to brighten up my day. My classmates, my friends, my family , my co-lectors and to all people who are concerned.


I really had an amazing day today.I hope that I can be able to managed in brightening up my day tomorrow especially that i will be having an exam in my two minor subject. But im sure I will. right?

goodbye facebook!

the rain sucks..
We were supposed to go out with my friend KAREN but due to this unexpected rain, our plan was cancelled. i really hate being stuck here at home. Im loosing all ideas to divert my attention into something more productive.

ANyway, im not sure if i will be able to update my blog this week. I've got quite alot more important things to do , and hence, I have to start detaching myself from social networking sites. But it would be impossible for me. I know? BTW, for the information of everyone,Im no longer using my fb account. Someone changed my password without me knowing it.Actually, it was a favor for me. But ill be back as soon as you know it.You might be wondering why i had to do it. I need to control my self from over using facebook.

SO at this moment, you can still check out on me on the following sites im currently using in. twitter, plurk and of course this blog.
My twitter is still under construction but imma fix it as soon as possible though.

missed to attend the lector's meeting :(

I missed to attend the lector's first meeting for this year. The last time I remember, I was excited for the meeting to come because I already prepared a lot of inspiring stories that I got while I was in manila. Actually, what happened was that I overslept this evening and I failed to wake up at 8:00 pm.I missed one opportunity again. Im sure Ate D was expecting me to be their also. I still have some important matters to tell her and because of my laziness. We weren't able to see each other. :((

Since Im having a hard time to sleep again. Know what I did? I made the liberty of cleaning my room and preparing my things for the upcoming classes. yeeey for me... haha :)) Speaking of classes, midterm exam is right on the corner again. I keep on telling myself that i should have make an advance study for my major subject but for the record, I found other interesting things than studying. but i'll promise to scan my notes tomorrow. Rest assured. Its for my own good anyway.. ;p

so I guess thats all I got for this night. Im still figuring out on how will I go back to sleep. any suggestion??? grrrr.
Goodnight to all,,xoxo :)

make bawi this year :)

goodmorning guys..
its the first sunday of the year 2011.
And I still can't believe how time flies so fast.
before the first day(jan 1) was about to end, i didn't hesitate to greet my friend a happy new year. I just miss her. All our laughter, crazy ideas and being so vain in front of cameras. I think that's the best way to start my new year. That's one of my new year's resolution, actually--- to make friends with someone I had disagreement with and to gain more and more friends.. :)


last year was been a disaster to me. I made a lot of mistakes. I missed a lot of opportunities. I made a lot of arguments with my friends and family.I want to have a peace of mind. Im aware that I have hurt the feelings of others. And was been hurt too. But as what the oldies were trying to tell us that it is part of being a teenager. They've been there and done that. But I would like to change my annoying attitude though. I have also noticed that these past, I have encountered a lot of changes .I guess to some extent, I'm starting to realize that not all things are constant and not all things are permanent. And we just to accept that fact. :)

2 days to go and classes will be resumed again. I still have to make "bawi" to all my quizzes and exams for this sem. I was really disappointed with the results i had but that wouldn't stop me to do better with my studies.
On a lighter side,one reason why I couldn't help but to be excited for the following days and weeks to come. Sure, i will be busy again. And this time, i'll make it sure that i wont miss all the opportunities that will come.

Actually, i do have lots of things that running in my mind. I want to write it and express it all here. but i just cant! i couldn't find the exact words actually. I dont want others to misinterpret me. SO i'd rather leave it all my self.
lets enjoy the upcoming events that will come.
happy playboy year guys!hehe

“A Monologue of a Broken Heart"

note: i saw these two compositions written by someone whom I have full respect with.. All his works are fantastic.. And these are just some of his compositions that i would like to share.. please have a time to read..



17 November 2008
In a distant Island somewhere in Palawan
0245H

It was new moon last night. I saw it rising from the horizon as we sail along the wind. I was mesmerized, of course, but I can’t force my self to just admire its beauty without remembering our love. Watching it without you by my side made me realize how empty I am. It made me realize how lonesome… how miserable… how abandoned my life had been since you left. Every time nature offers me something wonderful and breathtaking, it is not just pleasure that I feel… Why does it always have to be with pain? Why does it always have to hurt me? It seems that I live in torture. It is as if I dwell in endless suffering… so please, tell me… am I loving you too much? All I ever wanted is just to be devoted to you… though I know the harsh reality that loving you does not guarantee me a love in return. I now live a life full of agony… hatred… and remorse… yet I never blamed you… and I will never blame you… how can I know madness if it is felt against the person that I love most? It was just the moon. It was just a night… but I can’t understand it… all the beauty that this world can offer in my eyes must always have a price… and more often than not… it is the torment of realizing that you are no longer mine… that even how astonishing whatever it is in front of me… I have no choice but to adore it alone… and it saddens me… it saddens me more knowing that it was not a nightmare that will vanish away as I wake up… but something that is real… something that is existent. This is the way I live… this is the life that you left for me…

The night was supposed to be passionate… romantic... beautiful… however, only its shadow is what I see. The wind was cool and gentle… yet I can not feel it. Instead, it seems that there is something burning inside of me. I feel like hell. Inside my heart there is fire… and I can’t get rid of it either. I just wonder… does it make you happy to know that?

Since you went away, everything in my life seemed to be worthless. My dreams… my hopes… my ambitions… all gone with you. You were my life… and you were the only reason of my existence. That is why… now… everything I wanted for in this world seems to be meaningless…

I am a man blinded by my love for you… though I know you can never be mine. I would like to forget you… I would like to erase all my thoughts of you… I would like to clear my memory on our past… just like what you asked me to do… yet I can never ignore love… because I know that doing so will let me suffer as I can’t imagine… so… even though I sought to… I can do nothing about it.

I believed that I can stand on my own without you… I believe I can survive on my own accord… I believed I can live a life alone forever… I was wrong. I was really… really wrong… I can still remember when you told me to stop loving you… that I must have a life… that I must forget you… never you realized that you were asking too much… how can I stop loving you if you are the sole purpose why I live? And for heaven’s sake… how can I have a life if you were that one that gives it to me? You sustain me. You fill me. You complete me. So please explain… how is it possible to forget you?

When you told me that you were leaving… I was in total chaos… yet you were asking me to understand… to respect your decision… to be happy for you… you asked for your freedom… you asked me to let go… the worst was you used my love to break my own heart! You dared me to prove the sincerity of my love… and that is to set you free… With that, you left me no other choice… you did not realize… at that moment… at that very moment… you just asked me to die. Yet, because I love you… because I want you nothing more but happiness… I let you slip away from my hands… it broke my heart into pieces… and the most terrible part is… you took every single piece of it with you… you never knew… and I no longer have the chance to tell you… that when you asked me to let go of you… you asked me to stop breathing… you asked me to stab my soul.

It was just the moon. It was just the night… but why can’t I be happy all this time… why does loving you feels so right yet I gain nothing out of it? It only brings me pain… it only brings me sadness… but I can’t help it… I can’t control my self of thinking of you… of loving you…

Later, it will be sunrise… and I will be watching it as the sun ascends from the horizon to reveal its radiance and supremacy… it signifies a beginning of a new day… a start of a new hope… a birth of a new life… it will be very beautiful, for sure… and again… I will be witnessing it alone… Am I not permitted a single moment without mourning? Nevertheless… I must live with it.




..ps: read the continuation
http://jamaghanoy.blogspot.com/2011/01/response-of-guilty-heart-answer-to.html

“Response of the Guilty Heart” (an answer to the monologue of the broken heart)

19 November 2008
In the midst of guilt and regret
1815H


You were right. The new moon you witnessed was beautiful… I saw it too. But, I would admit that your nostalgia over its view is quite predictable. You are always fascinated with the sun… the moon… and the stars… you… and you alone see the beauty hidden on everything that is existent on earth… you would adore a sunset… you would praise the sunrise… yet most often than not… I would not see it as the way you do. I tried hard to look at things at your perspective… I did my best. Actually, I did even more than my best… but, sad to say, I see nothing but the ordinary. I loved you… and I believe you felt that. I was always transparent with my feelings toward you. I told you everything… I told you the truth… so I was expecting you saw it coming. I do not hate you and I can never hate you… in fact, I love you… yes, I do… but not as intimate as it was before… now, what I feel is purely platonic… and I can’t fool my self… I can’t lie in front of my own face… so I have to admit it… I just fell out of love. I really thought you saw it coming… it was not swiftly… it was not abrupt… rather in a slow pace… gradually… I just felt that my affection was fading away… day by day… moment by moment.

It was hard for me too… to throw all our memories together… the times we spent together… yet I have no choice… I can’t live a life knowing that I am acting… that I am pretending… that I am still helplessly in love with you. I left not because of hate… I left not because I would like to hurt you… I left not to bring you pain. I left because I had loved you… and that because you are honorable… because you are pure… yet just too good to be true. I believed you will never deserve someone like me. Your love was so deep… so sincere… so real… but mine was not as passionate as yours. You always tell me that you love me… that you long for me… that I am your life… I believed you… I actually believed you… You just do not know how sweet those words to me… how I feel blessed of being loved by someone so knightly… so gentle… so pure. Yet, behind that happiness is the guilt that I can not get rid of… I had no man, other than you… at least, until the very last moment of our relationship together, I became loyal and devoted… because I did… loved you. Being loved by you is being loved by an angel… It seemed I was in the seventh heaven… floating in the clouds… gliding with the wind… but it was also like the torment of my soul for I was living in a dream… I was living to pretend it was real… with that, my conscience haunted me… for letting you believe that I was true… I was pure… I was real as you… you do not deserve someone like me… you deserve someone better… someone that enjoys the sunset… the moon… and the stars…. Someone who could see the beauty that you see… someone… but not me. I was happy with you… every moment of it will be treasured… yet whenever I think of it… it was not pure joy that I feel… there is guilt… there is regret… How I wish I can come back to you… but I am held with the truth that as always, you love me more than I love you.

You asked me if you are loving me too much. And I would say, yes you are. That is why you are hurting… that is why you can’t live a new life of your own. That is why our memories keep on tormenting you… please move on… I could not bear it more to see you suffering… you deserve a life… you deserve to be happy.

When I told you that even how profound and deep your love can be… it will never pledge you the equivalent in return… I was hoping you read between the lines… yet you were blinded by your love for me to ignore the real meaning of my words. I did not intend to surprise you with my decision… it’s just that… you never thought it will come. I can never say that I am happier now, compared to my days when we were still together… but I could say… I am more composed… I am more at peace. I can never blame you if you will despise me… because I deserve it… please… be mad at me… mock me… curse me… I deserve your madness… I deserve your grief.

You are hurting… you are in pain… you are suffering… and knowing that makes my heart bleed too… it is not just you who is hurting… who is suffering… who is in pain… I feel what you feel… for I loved you… yet I was the reason… the sole reason of your agony. So be it. You are in chaos… you told me… I’m aware of it. And I would like you to know that I am not happy to know that… I did not mean to break your heart… nor bring with me every single piece of it… now, I will enclose it to you… glued together by my guilt… whole again… beating… pure… as it has always been.

Do not live in your history… make me a distant memory… someone that lived in your past… I can never forget you… nor your kiss… your touch… and everything about you… yet I will force my self to… time will heal… time will heal… I beg you to accept my sincere apology… and listen to my account…Please… understand… I left because of my respect to you… I left because of my love… you do not deserve to mourn… so strive to be happy… find the beauty of the things around you just how you are used to… appreciate the sunset… mesmerize the night… and do it the way you were with me… enjoy life… live to the fullest… and accept the fact that I am gone. I am gone… forever.

You are a new man.
You are pure.
You are gentle
You are true.